Have you ever looked back on your life, and realised that the things you wanted in the past, you never want now. In fact, it’s one of the last things you want.
From clothes, to cars, to friends to boyfriends.
When I was 14 I had a major crush on a boy, and I always wished that he would notice me. He never did (haha!) but the other day he added me on Facebook, and seeing what has happened in his life, the decisions he made and the life he built for himself, I’m not judging, I’m just grateful for the life I have.
When I was younger I really wanted to drive a ‘pannetjie’ or a beetle, and now that I’m older, I’m so thankful that I have a proper car that can take me safely from point A to point B.
We always think we know what we want, and then life takes its course, giving and not giving us what we want. And then when we look back, we realise that irrespective what we wanted, what we have now, is way better.
I thank the Lord above that He didn’t always give me what I wanted. My life would be a mess. I would be married to who knows who, in Paris, being a poor street artist, driving a beetle, with embarrassing tattoos, and a flip phone. That’s who I would be if I got everything I wanted when I was 16.
I would be a firefighter, married to Danny from Grease, living in a house with a white picket fence, and driving a bus if I got what I wanted when I was 9.
I would be married to the wrong man, doing the wrong job, living in the wrong house, being dreadfully unhappy if I got what I wanted when I was 9, 15, 17, 20.
Life takes its course, and we have little to no control over it. The decisions we make are the best choice for us at that time, and thankfully we can’t make life decisions ahead of time.
I’m actually extremely happy that things didn’t work out the way I once wanted it to. All of us probably are.
Whenever the Facebook memories show up on my news feed, I feel like a completely different person that I was even just 12 months ago. And I always feel like I have improved. I never regret where I am now.
I’m grateful for the life I have, and I realise that it’s nothing that I did to create this life for myself. We have so much to be thankful for, and we shouldn’t take it for granted. Never ever.